“He broke up with you, right? After telling you he loved you and calling you pet names like baby and cutie? Yeah, I know he lavished you in compliments, only to put himself down so you would stroke his fake low ego. Did he tell you that you were beautiful? I bet he promised you a personalized song. Or maybe he’d always mention how he was lying in bed and wished you were there. He dragged “I love you” out of you, didn’t he? Yeah, don’t deny it. He would talk to you last thing at night and first thing in the morning. He constantly mentioned losing sleep over you, every night, but we both know he slept like a rock. He made you love pictures that were just sort of “bleh” before. Did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? Yeah, me too. All of your friends hate him now, don’t they? Remember how happy they were for you? They warned you. Just remember, it’s okay to cry. And referring to him as “asshole” is perfectly expected. Because, trust me, you’ll end up talking about him just as often, if not more, than before the break up. There will be the “one time”s and the “I remember”s, and once you think you’re over him, watch out. You better keep your eyes closed in the hallways, because I promise you, the next time you see him, he’ll be all over some other girl. A little part of you will want to warn her, but nobody will blame you for hating her and for blaming her for your pain. Yeah, you’ll compare all guys to him, because aside from the man-whorish, heart-breaker thing, he was perfect. He was everything you had ever wanted. Or maybe you made that up. Maybe, the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just happened to be just like him. Listen, you will find the perfect guy for you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon. Okay, so I didn’t believe it either, but I’m starting to.The most important thing though is don’t let him know he hurt you. Don’t let him know he could have you back in a heartbeat. Don’t give him that satisfaction. Make him think you’re completely happy. When he decides to wave at you like nothing ever happened, wave back, sure. But don’t smile. Make him think he meant as little to you, as you obviously meant to him.”
At some point in your life, you just have to give up, let go and let everything flow without you distorting the current. Not because you surrender the fight you are in, but because staying isn’t really an option.
Sometimes, you have to reflect on what others has done to you. Not that you’re being selfish, but rather you’re just giving yourself the treatment you deserve.
Sometimes, you just have to act like your senses aren’t working well, to the point that you see nothing, hear nothing and even feel nothing. Not because you’re pretending to be okay, but because you have to be strong despite of the things that disappoints you.
Sometimes, you just have to act like nothing or even no one did you wrong. Not that you’re being high above others but rather this will be the thing that will lift you up .. not maybe for that long, but maybe to at least make you okay.
Sometimes, you just have to act like you’re not yourself. Not to be a fake but rather you’re just being mature enough to handle your feelings.
The current will not stop for you. The current may be too hard on you but once you know how to sail the boat you’re in, you’ll learn how to go with the flow.
Hilig ko talagang mag-isip ng kung anu-ano sabay madedepress ako pagkatapos. Yun bang settled na eh, tapos iisipin ko kung ano kaya mangyayari kung ganto o ganyan ginawa ko. Lol. Praning lang. Yan ang dulot ng hiwaga ng pagdedesisyon, “Think before you act” ika nga. Kung ayaw mong pagsisihan ang gagawin mo, pag-isipan mo munang mabuti. Pssssh. Random ko.
Sa panahon ngayon, hindi ko na talaga alam kung nagsisinungaling ba o hindi ang mga lalaki. Magsasabi sila ng kung anu anong magagandang bagay tungkol sa’yo para maging masaya ka. Minsan naisip ko kung gusto ka ba talaga nila pasiyahin, gusto ba nilang maging maganda tingin mo sa kanila o gusto ka lang nila mapaisip kung ano ba talaga tingin nila sayo. Gulo no?
It’s time like this where I have to think about what went wrong within the two of us. It’s weird, actually. That although I know the answer, I still ask myself the same question. Telling myself I’m okay seems to be a challenge. I want to ask if he’s doing okay but at the same time I have to stop myself from doing it because I don’t want to let him know that I miss him. By that way, he could take me for granted. And I don’t want that to happen. Gosh. I don’t know if I’m just overthinking things. I just hope I’ll be fine later, or maybe tomorrow. I only know one thing though, it might be hard to do such things this time but I know I’ll be better when the time comes.
It’s Saturday and it’s gloomy outside. What a perfect time to contemplate and think of what’s been bugging me for some time now. You see, my ex and I broke up last five months and it’s kinda weird that I’m only adopting the idea just now. Maybe it’s just hard for me to accept the fact that it’s over, primarily because he made such an impact in my life. Another thing is he’s been with me for a year and four months, my blockmate, too. Yes, my blockmate. My classmate in every class. Hah. Funny, eh? But as I said earlier, I’ve already accept that fact. I am single, an independent woman, and definitely I’m not a man-hater. Haha! Cheers for the new me, yes? Cheers!